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Top Ten Favorite Songs Right Now:
1) Disarm - Smashing Pumpkins
2) Quicksand - Incubus
3) When Did Your Heart Go Missing - Rooney
4) The Way I Are - Timbaland / Keri Hilson & Sebastion
5) Tragedy - Young Love
6) Everything's Just Wonderful - Lily Allen
7) The Little Things - Colbie Caillat
8) Sowing Season - Brand New
9) Bartender - T. Pain
10) Hillbilly Deluxe - Brooks & Dunn
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| Just wondering ... |
[07 Sep 2006|12:29am] |
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Out of curiosity, who actually still reads my lj? I wonder... hmm... you should comment if you do, that will be fun and interesting.
I've decided to boycott a place that I am very sick of. I want to stop hanging out there all the time because too many of the people I meet are losers who really aren't going anywhere in life. I don't want to associate with those types anymore. I'm really trying to get my life back on track and I don't need it. I'm going to try really hard to find better things to do. Plus, I'm sure when Fred gets back it will be back to normal for me, and less hanging out there and more hanging out with him and with people I actually want to be around.
I'm excited, my job interview is tomorrow. I love job interviews, they make me feel so great about myself...I waltz in there with uber confidence lookin' all fly in my "professional gear" (as I like to call it) and impress the shorts off of them. It's fun! Then you get that approval call and you're like "YES! I'M THE BEST! WOOOHOO!" It's a great ego boost, I know.
I love my hair right now, the pink streaks are so hot! I really hope they don't look at the hair and automatically rule me out. Grr...and if they accept it, I hope they don't ask me to dye it. That would be sad, but oh well I mean you gotta do what ya gotta do to get a damn job in this town. Hah.
Sometimes I wish I could motivate myself, or the constants in my life like Ashley, Sarah or my parents could motivate me as well as Fred does, but sadly no one comes close. For some reason I always want to better myself when he's in my life. I don't know what it is, but as soon as we got back together I started really cracking down on getting job applications out there and I was doing great in school until Fred and I broke up last time. I just can never get myself properly motivated without him. I know it sounds really lame but I like that he's such a big source of it for me. I love him so much. I think he knows that he is my strength and I'm so happy we're together again.
I love my Tiffany's ring, it's so flippin' beautiful. I want to go on another date like that! lol I can't believe I got a Tiffany's ring on our date! Hehe. I have to brag, he's so amazing... and I can't wait to go to the beach with him, that is going to be a well deserved vacation for us. We need a wonderful getaway, we need some time to ourselves, just for us, so we can get ourselves back to good.
Hmm. Love. Is so good to have.
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[05 Sep 2006|04:17pm] |
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It is truly amazing how many people are still on this thing. I realized I never deleted my account and I check it ever 6 months or so...lol. So weird day, decided to write a little something in it. So I have a boyfriend, whom I just got back together with, we were together for 11 months and then we broke up for a month and now we're back together and almost on our real one year anniversary. We plan to go to the beach for a weekend just us, stay in a hotel and chill out for our anniversary. yay. He is in Amsterdam right now and will be back on the 12th! Yay.
I have a job interview on Thursday since I've been unemployed for about a month I realized it was about time to get on it. I did summer quarter at TCC, I plan to keep going there but resume in the winter, not going to take fall quarter in order to get a good job and get settled..again. lol.
Um..physicalities.. I have pink and brown hair now... and I have four tattoos. May be getting a new piercing soon, so far I just have three in each ear. I think my boobs are a little bigger. That's about it.
I am going to meet a friend now and then we're going to see another friend and her dorms. So I'm going to get off this thing.. peace.
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| It's been sooo long. |
[23 Jun 2006|01:44am] |
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So...I know, it has been a long time since I've updated this, but I recently got my computer back after it being all messed up for a while and I figured what the hell and jumped on. I saw a couple of friends entries and figured I might write something too.
So lately I've been hanging out with people that I work with and Fred's friends who have really become my friends too.. and of course Sarah and Liz whom I've known for quite a while. It's been fun, fun to be social again. Hah.
Oh by the way-Liz and I walked down on the waterfront today and I ran into your mom and sister, Jordy. I told them to tell you hi for me but if you read this before then, HI! It's been so long since I've talked to you. You should give me a call this summer.
So... new stuff... I got a new car, its a rav4 and it's royal blue and REALLY hot. I also got a new job... I start on the 28th of this month with MAC cosmetics, whom I've always wanted to work for cause I really only wear their makeup, because they are AWESOME. So I'm stoked about that, plus they offered me 3.50 more than what I was getting at Macys and commission every two weeks instead of once a month. Not bad, I'd say.
Also I start school on Monday! Yay. It's time to go back into it and I figured Summer quarter would be perfect because it won't be overwhelming especially with me starting a new job and all. In the summer quarter full time is 2 classes and you only have to go Mon thru Thurs...not bad at all. We'll just see what my schedule is going to be like with this new job. Scary. Also this isn't so new but Fred and I moved in together. We have a beautiful apartment, we've been living here about 2 months now...it's great! We have a new bed and new furniture and we're working slowly but surely on decorating. It's been so much fun to have my own place to come home to. I love it! Plus I definitely take advantage of the pool and hot tub, and that's always fun.
All in all things are going pretty great, just gettin ready to work my ass off for the next couple of months, and get myself ready for student life again. I'm glad I'm finally going somewhere, finally doing something, and so so happy I have my lovely boyfriend to motivate me and hold my hand through it all.
Maybe I'll update again within this month...who knows. See ya'll around.
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[01 Apr 2006|12:02pm] |
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Crazy weeks and such. School for Origins was fun. Lots of good times in Seattle...spent 130 dollars on makeup while there.. hehe. We got back this morning from Portland, Fred and I stayed with his brother Thurs and last night. Twas fun. We did the hookah bar as usual, cept this time we had pomegranate. VERY GOOD. And we visited Powells city of books FINALLY... SO wonderful. 3 really great books for about 20 dollars dude. HOLLER.
So in two weeks I'll be in North Carolina. sigh. home. with Fred for the wedding. I'm going to meet his mom and sister! He'll be meeting some of my family that lives there too. Yay.
OOOH and I forgot to tell everyone, Fred bought me a BEAUTIFUL diamond ring!!!!!!!!!! real. Yes folks, real. And it is gorgeous!!! Plus he got me an aquamarine ring and necklace... all for absolutely no reason other than he loves me.
MMMMM.. oh and I will post pictures of my new tattoo and rings as soon as possible.
Love.
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[22 Mar 2006|08:50pm] |
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Oh by the way... Fred and I have been back together since the 9th... I just haven't updated lately. So scratch that whole last entry. Hahhaa woops.
So things have been hectic busy and stressful as usual. I had school today in Seattle for Origins, another class tomorrow and one Friday then back to real work. Blah. It's not horrible but it's not the best thing ever either... at least I have Kerry to go with and we had fun. Today on our hour lunch break we went shopping at Sephora's. Yay!!! I got the new heating eyelash curler and it is the coolest thing I think I've ever owned! Plus I got a cute lipgloss. I'm such a makeup addict. Go figure.
Well, hopefully school will be better tomorrow ... fuck traffic by the way (had to let that out) ... and then Trend Event on Saturday (bleck) and Monday off. Yay!!! Plus Fred won't have school so we can sleep in ALLLLLL DAY. That's what I plan to do. Sleep sleep...and more sleep. ALL DAY.
I miss having two days off in a row... I've been working like 9 days in a row before I get one day off then back to it for four more days then another day off. It's so gay. But we just hired a new girl and hopefully that will help my stupid manager to start scheduling us better... I want a damn core schedule! And gratis... a few more months but yay.
So um. Yeah, work has been my life for the last month. I know I'm boring but I'm making MONEY! Yay. And North Carolina in April ... it's going to be so fun! I still need a dress or skirt or something... oh yea and for those who don't know a week ago I went and got a new tattoo! Pictures to follow at a later date.
Much love everyone. I miss you all. MUAH.
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| Good ride, cowboy, good ride. |
[05 Mar 2006|08:17pm] |
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Well. It happened. The ending. Fred and I are broken up. It's over, as of Friday night. And of course that night and Saturday it wasn't ok, I cried a lot. I am still a little sad, a little upset. Heartbroken. But... I've got too many good things, too many good people in my life, my friends and family. A strong support system, so I'm just not freaking out anymore. In fact, I went to his apt tonight and got all the rest of my stuff. I was perfectly sane, smile on my face no tears... just closure. It's pretty much okay now. He'll still always be my first love and it will always hurt just a bit but, you know, I cannot dwell on this.
I have to move on, therefore I'm using this as the beginning of a Spring cleaning. Not just my bedroom and car... my life. I am going to wipe all the excess dust and badness off of myself and come out fresh, new and clean. I am more mature now than I was when I started that relationship and I'm going to keep it that way. I feel a little more intelligent, and maybe somewhat like a newer person. There are good things, and bad things but I have realized that I can't be sad and hold the memories so tight that they make me cry. I have to be happy for the things I had with him and happy for the fact that I am out of a relationship that would have probably left me unhappy later on anyway.
While I still do love Fred, I just realize that it isn't really me or him, it was just us... as a couple... things just weren't working and that's fine. I will get over this. My heart will mend itself with some time. I'll be alright.
And you know what... it was a good ride, cowboy, good ride.
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| You're like coming home... |
[02 Mar 2006|12:24am] |
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I love country music. Yay.
Today I felt shnazzy. I know, fantastic word.
I woke up at 8:30a, it felt nice to be up early and the sun was actually shining, so that was cool. I had breakfast and lots of time. So I watched a movie, cleaned my room a bit, then took a shower and had so much time to get ready. Turned on my country music real loud and danced around while I got ready. I got all fancied up, wore my cute gauchos that I bought forever ago and have never worn. I felt nice today.
'I'm shameless...when it comes to loving you, I'll do anything you want me to, I'll do anything at all.'
I wish things weren't so tough, I wish love was simple and beautiful ..all the time.
I just want less stress and frustration. Why can't it just be summer.
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| Ain't nothing like the real thing baby... |
[28 Feb 2006|12:11pm] |
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I don't work til 2:30p so I'm going to sit here and relax. I slept in til 11a! Crazy. Tonight I'm going to just go home, well after I come to Fred's to pack up my stuff, and I'm gonna sleep in my own bed. I'm gonna start reading a new book, or at least another one of my really great books. I went to Half Price books to see if anything new shouted at me from the shelves, but all I got were mere whispers. Does anyone have any suggestions for me? If so, please comment.
I am going to relax in my own house, sleep in my own bed.
It's definitely nice every once in a while. I just hope my mom got some popcorn!
I had Sunday, Monday off.. now I work today, weds, thurs, fri, sat, sun, mon, tues, weds, and I get Thursday and Friday off.
So much work. Woohoo. I have to remember to go ask for Apr 12-16 off when I go into work today. RAR.
Anyway, not much to say.. I'm still boring, there's been nothing going on. I'm not really all that happy or satisfied. Of course, always. Off to the shower. Must get ready for work.
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[23 Feb 2006|11:20pm] |
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I'm watching the History Channel with Fred...while he is supposed to be doing homework. The show that's on isn't what I want to be watching but it's one of the few channels that is actually coming in on our tv. Oh well. Bleh.
On a lighter note...
Fred has a fish named Bruce and I bought two african dwarf frogs today that are about the size of my fingernail.. SO CUTE. Then we bought a really nice tank and rocks for the bottom and a little plant, a filter and a heater (since they're tropical fish) and now we're waiting for the water to warm up a bit more so we can transfer them from the bowl to the tank. It's sweet. I'm happy, we have pets! Yay.
I think I'm naming the frogs Catalina and Carmen ... don't ask me why, it just came to me earlier when I bought them.
So it's been a sweet day...I got to hang out with my mommy, look at puppies online cause my mom wants to buy another one lol and we got our doggies back from the groomers, they looked so cute. Then I came in town and have been hanging with my baby. It's been nice.
I love the Geico commercials with the sweet little gecko. What is it with me and animals today? Haha.
I don't have much to say, it was a nice day off though..and back to work tomorrow. Yay.
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[15 Feb 2006|09:41pm] |
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Valentines was nice. I got the biggest box of chocolates I've ever seen in my life. A wonderful card and a rockstar!!! YAY!
It was really sweet.
Things are kinda rough and on the rocks though. Grr.
Woke up at 6am cause I had school in Seattle for Origins .. "spring training" .. It was so much fun though and I got so much free stuff! Yay. I get to really use Origins products now and I feel like I really understand and know so much more about all of the products and how to really show and sell them. I love love love love it.
Christina and I had a two and a half hour car ride getting home though and that sucked lol.. it was hella funny though, we had fun. I'm glad I didn't go alone. The girls I met there were all really sweet too and I loved our instructor ..she was awesome!
So.. we're sitting around talking about politics...well, they are. I feel stupid. Stupid politics.
Love. Me.
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I am currently sitting in the living room with a charcoal pore mask on my face and watching Golden Girls. Hot. This is why lazy days off rock so much. I'm waiting for Sarah to get up and call me so she can meet Jesse, Fred and I at PSP.
I'm really sad about the weather not being wonderful, cause Sarah and I were going to have a picnic today. Sadness.
I need to get my nails done. Random thought.
I want the sun to come out! COME OUT SUN.
My mask is dry now...I need to go wash it off.
pointless.
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[12 Feb 2006|02:09pm] |
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I just woke up. At 2...wow. But hey, it's my day off... and I don't feel so sick now! Yay!!! I woke up and could actually breathe, it's just the coughing that's getting me now. Oh well, not too bad. So anyway I woke up and went outside to smoke and it is so so so warm. 55 degrees baby and barely any wind. It's feeling nice. Fred should be home around 4 and then I am making him take me somewhere outside so we can sit and enjoy the weather.
Last night was pretty fun, we played Monopoly for I think almost 4 or 5 hours. Yeaaa... it was hot.
Sorry there was a breif intermission there while I had a phone call and took a shower. Not like you would know but I just told you so there.
I am going to finish getting ready then head over to Sarah's place of employment so I may have a cigarette with her on her last 15 minute break.
I love it when I get to wear jeans.
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[11 Feb 2006|12:02am] |
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So sick. So tired. Hated work today because I felt like shit and I didn't get to really work. I was playing cashier for Clinique today because they're in gift. Lame. I was all sick and feeling shitty and then had to do that, which makes me miss out on a good commission day. Oh well. Plus my commission check came in today and I had to use it to pay my union dues, because of the startup fee it was way more expensive than it will be usually. Oh well, at least that's over with. Yay. I might call in to work tomorrow too cause I know I feel like shit and I probably won't be able to function tomorrow.
Beyond the bad part of the day, Fred took me to sushi for our six months which is very very adorable and sweet because he doesn't eat sushi and I rarely get to now because of that. He's wonderful, poor guy had to have chicken teriyaki and it isn't exactly his favorite. I love him so much. He really does so much for me. Afer dinner I still didn't feel so good, so we stayed home and invited everyone over to play Lord of the Rings Monopoly which turned out to be pretty hilarious.
Everyone just left, early for a Friday night I suppose but I'm really sick and I know everyone's pretty tired. I feel like poop. I hate being sick.
OHHH I ALMOST FORGOT TO TELL YA'LL. I GOT THE ORIGINS POSITION!!! HELLA YEAH. yayayayayayayay. I was told today "officially" yay!
Happiness.
Tired... coughing... going to relax now ...maybe even sleep soon.
Love me.
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[09 Feb 2006|02:52pm] |
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Yesterday my friend Kara who works with me, Sarah and I all went out.. we went out to my house, then we went to the South Hill mall and walked around for a bit, had lunch and talked. We rocked some good tunes in my car, and cruised around. We just drove around all day and talked and really did nothing. Then Kara said it was cheap bowling cause it was Wednesday... so we got some cute clothes from her house and went back to Fred's and we got all ready.
She wore a hot Ramones mini skirt and dressed all 80's and I wore a cute little plaid-ish mini skirt and went all rocker/school girl. It was hot. Fred, Sarah, Kara and me all went in my car and we met Richard and Jesse there at the bowling alley. It was so much fun, we did guys against girls and the boys bet us if they won we had to buy them dinner at Denny's. We foolishly accepted and they whooped our asses, hard. But it was still fun. So we all went out to Denny's afterward and had yummy food. Then we went home.
This morning Fred and I slept in, it was so nice. When we woke up there was sun coming through the blinds...we went outside for a smoke and it was warm! Yay. So we are now finishing getting dressed and ready and we're going out somewhere. Probably the waterfront or something like it. Everyone have a lovely day!
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[05 Feb 2006|11:40pm] |
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Stolen from Gemma's lj... lol thanks Gemma (for giving me something to do)
You choose a band/artist then answer the questions in only their song titles.
1. Choose a band / artist:
Something Corporate
2. Are you male or female:
Punk Rock Princess
3. Describe yourself:
I Want To Save You
4. How do some people feel about you:
Not What It Seems
5. How do you feel about yourself:
Space
6. Describe your ex boyfriend / girlfriend:
Ruthless
7. Describe current boyfriend / girlfriend:
She Paints Me Blue (except it's a he)
8. Describe where you want to be:
Me and the Moon
9. Describe how you live:
21 and Invincible
10. Describe how you love:
I Won't Make You
11. What would you ask for if you had just one wish:
Globes and Maps
12. Share a few words of Wisdom:
Miss America
13. Where do you Live?
Cavanaugh Park
14. Now say goodbye:
The Runaway
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[04 Feb 2006|11:21pm] |
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Last night we had Richard, Sarah, Liz and Jon over, it was fun. Had some beer, watched a couple movies... stayed up til almost 6am. OUCH... then had to work all day... work wasn't so bad though. I actually had really great sales and the customers weren't bad...it was less busy than I thought it would be for a Saturday.
I really like my job, the people are so nice, the pay is very very nice and the girls I work with are awesome. Tomorrow I get to wear jeans if I wear a Seahawks shirt so I'm going CASUAL! Yay. Yea I'm excited..I know .. cool.
I can't wait for sun and summer... laying out and tanning and lazying around. OOOH I can't wait! Getting to wear skirts and shorts again... tank tops and tee shirts without freezing my ass off. I love summer... love love love summer.
In 6 days it's our 6 month anniversary and 4 days later it's Valentines day! We still haven't made any plans.. anyone have any good suggestions?? (besides going out to dinner.. we always do that)
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[04 Feb 2006|11:13pm] |
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I love my new bracelet! Less than 5 bucks at work! Woohoo.
I like things, they're nice. I wish the weather would start getting better but you can't ask for everything.
I wanna do something... but I don't know what yet.
Hmm.. this entry is fucking lame and pointless.
Someone give me a topic.... NOW!
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| If you ever get close to watching man... |
[03 Feb 2006|12:45pm] |
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Fucking rain. Oh well. I got to sleep in, and with Fred! hehe He skipped school this morning, I love those mornings. I woke up to a kiss on the lips.. so nice.
He just left for the office. I am going to start doing my makeup and then hopefully Sarah will come out and we're gonna do some shopping (we both got paid today).. I have a little list forming from what I see that Fred and I need:
-toothpaste
-mouth wash
-conditioner
and I think that's it.
Oh and I need gas and cigarettes.
Otherwise, I wanted to get a few new cosmetics with my discount but I may just put that on hold...I'm not sure yet. To splurge or not to splurge?
I don't work til 5, so I have some time to decide and I can go to work a bit early anyway so I can deliberate.
Ok. I'm going to finish getting ready. Tonight I believe we're still getting together. I'll call you guys before work. Peace.
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